What lies within..

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 19:19

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

okay

everyone's not happy

she's not happy

i'm not happy

fuck

it's nth really

i've just set my hopes to high

and here i am, thinking friday would be a day of R&R

what bullshit

i don't think i'm meant for this kinda stuff

i actually asked God to take my soul back and return my body to the Earth

of course God won't

life's not that easy, not that simple

kinda miss the old days of Sec 1

young and innocent

simple

life's to complicated

a miracle would be nice

but, of course, it's up to the Almighty

well anyway, tmorrow's the sec three camp for the second batch of bgss students

the second part

i wish ya all the best, all the fun

lets see...

jerico's a good guy

gentleman-ly

if that word ever exists

also...

hmmm...

man

just too fucked up to do anything

i'm too lazy to even put the bolds and italics in this post

once again, it's nobody's fault

just mine

and mine alone

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 23:07

Sunday, July 25, 2004

okay

lots of stuff have been happening to me

happy stuff

like the deal with mom

feel happy i can talk to her again!

and dad too.

i enjoy our little talk now!

also...

finally talked to her

her

after what mariana told me, i finally realised what she felt all along

so we talked (on thu)

it was good

on sat,

(fri was when i opened up to mom)

i was happy for being able to open up to mom,

finally

i decided...

to share my joy with her

it was warm...

and nice

to be able to talk to someone again

weee...!

okay, i am happy

but now...

i dunno

ever since mariana, sabirah and xinting ask me the question

i've been thinking

and thinking

and thinking

too much

of...

well...

her.

yeah.

i dunno what's happening

every minute, she's there in my thoughts

in bed, saturday night

i can't stop thinking

i can't stop feeling...

Feeling...

God, tell me what i'm feeling inside of me

i remember...

feeling this...

three years ago...

but is it real?

am i falling?

am i falling?

.....

.....

...

...

...

...again?................

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 21:51

Thursday, July 22, 2004

Which Final Fantasy Guy are you?

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 23:01

Which Final Fantasy Summon are you?

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 22:53

adam.

lilith.

sachiel.

samshel.

ramiel.

gaghiel.

israfel.

sandalphon.

matariel.

sahaqiel.

ireul.

liliel.

bardiel.

zeruel.

arael.

armisael.

tabris.

as usual, i'm nuts.

so don't bother me.

haha.

i guess there's no Neon Genesis Evangelion fans visiting my blog... haiz.

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 00:33

Saturday, July 17, 2004

hmmm.. three posts in a day

would that qualify as crazy?

well anyway, there was no tuition today - again, for the third time in three weeks - so i went to tampines mall to get avril's new album. it's really great, a reommended must-buy. i'll give it five stars out of five. it seems like a star too much, but the tracks are really good and meaningful. i really like it because it relates to my current feelings at this moment, and what i've been feeling for a long time. cheers to avril!

peace out...

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 20:33

Avril Lavigne

My Hapy Ending

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

(Chorus:)You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

(Chorus:)You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

(Chorus:)You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

(Chorus:)You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 11:57

okay.

people have been saying...

okay, actually only one of them, but i'm sure everyone's thinking...

what the hell am i writing about?

all i have to say is...

haha

well, its all just cryptic stuff i wanna say, the real message inside

so read between the lines, okay?

how i'm doin?

fine i guess. actually not. but finer than usual.

if finer is, was or ever in the english dictionary

my dad just got a bonus, so he's paying back all the stuff he owed when i'v used my own savings to pay for school stuff

now i'm bombarded by twenty-five bucks

make it thirty-five

hahaha

what i'm gonna do with all that money?

i'll sing a song and you'll decide

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that I was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

now you know...

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 11:28

Tuesday, July 06, 2004

hey guys. guess what? i'm sick! i won't be coming tomorrow, fever and all. wearing multiple layers of clothing to keep myself warm. man, this is like, bugger!

lets see... the first day of the second week in school. i can't believe i accidentally spilled the gravy of my mee siam on Jason's back! Yuvan was nearby, and standing behind him, he doesn't know i was there. so i was heading to the tables in the middle, when all of a sudden Yuvan moved his arm... to my plate of mee siam! the gravy spilled all over his back! oh dear... he got his shirt changed and i apologised on the spot. after school, i met up with Jason and apologised again. Jason found out of the accident and forgave me. thank God!

nick wasn't in school today. i bet he didn't want to come to school today... heehee.

well, going off now. hasta luego!

ps: Rob Dougan's Chateau rocks! haha...

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 21:52

Monday, July 05, 2004

SICK!!!

Growing Fever

Let's see...

coming to school, don't worry.

still sleeping late!!!

crazy.

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 22:34