What lies within..

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 22:04

Friday, December 22, 2006

Bleah

Bleah

I don't know who to talk to.

Cause...

The person I would go to... is not there.

Hence. Dilemma.

Yes, feeling awful. Awful awful awful.

Love you, H.

Sayonara~

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 22:33

Thursday, December 21, 2006

Let's go to the beach; get the sands through our feet

Let's go to the beach; get the sands through our feet

Sigh.

And sigh again.

So maybe some stuffs are going well.

Some stuff just remain the same.

Can't you just buy the damn thing? I'm sick of waiting really.

Just one thing...

And it's not like I'm asking you to buy it with your own money.

I saved for that damn thing. And I need it. But you're deliberately avoiding buying it. Basket.

Just, one thing, and let's get this over with. What goes goes, and what doesn't stays. Then we find some other way to work it out.

You know, just, one wish.

And I would like to get out of here.

Anyways.

I did mention some things going alright...

But some things are brought to a standstill.

It's been so long.

Can I bring myself to tears, but I cannot..

Yeah.

I mean, ...

Okay, really. It's been so long.

It's just too long.

I pushed you down deep in my soul for too long.

Maybe..

Still, really. Where are you? Hm...

I seem desperate, methinks.

Just, I really miss...

Anyways. Off to bed. Seeya world.

Love you, H.

Sayonara~

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 01:46

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Funny how a song can mean what you want to say

Funny how a song can mean what you want to say

Make It Happen
Blue

Tonight you'll call
We'll talk the way we always do
But still you won't say anything I want you to
And though your words
Are sweet they just can't ease my pain

I guess I've waited far too long
You just can't lead me on

Don't just talk, make it happen
(Don't make me wait for you,
Do what you came to do)
Keep me up
Don't stop, make it happen
(It's got the best of me,
This curiosity)
Kills me every time

I'll wait for you
To ring my bell,
I want you to
So don't be late
Quit playing games, don't hesitate

Cause now I've waited far too long
You just can't lead me on

Don't just talk, make it happen
(Don't make me wait for you,
Do what you came to do)
Keep me up
Don't stop, make it happen
(It's got the best of me,
This curiosity)
Kills me every time

You know that I won't do you wrong
This love I feel is far too strong
Cos now I've waited far too long
You can't just lead me on

Don't just talk, make it happen
(Don't make me wait for you,
Do what you came to do)
Keep me up
Don't stop, make it happen
(It's got the best of me,
This curiosity)
Kills me every time

Don't just talk, make it happen
(Don't make me wait for you,
Do what you came to do)
Keep me up
Don't stop, make it happen
(It's got the best of me,
This curiosity)
Kills me every time

Still love you, H.

Sayonara~

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 07:23

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Father Abraham had seven Hard Gays, fooo~!

Father Abraham had seven Hard Gays, fooo~!

Back from camp. Shagged.

In fact, I pretty much just woke up. Clocked in eleven hours of sleep.

NCO Camp was Da Bomb. I enjoyed it, really.

But now, I know I have to face the responsibilities, and the possible reprecussions I've lead to this day.

Well. Take in da shitz, face the music.

Hm. Probably gonna go shower... then prayers... then stone...

Just WHAT happened to my Media Player music database?

Hm.....

Where are you?

Love you, H.

Sayonara~

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 03:07

Friday, December 08, 2006

He's either feeling sick, or hungry!

He's either feeling sick, or hungry!

I've gained quite an appetite these past few days. Seems like the usual meal of a main dish and fruit and 500 ml of water (yes, one whole tank of that) seems insufficient. In fact, I am confident that I can go through five muffins right now, even though I've eaten an apple about two hours back. That, and to consider my big meal of lamb chop and a slice of papaya, and the glass of water (okay, maybe not 500 ml this time) for dinner.

And I'm still hungry. Haha.

I guess it's because NCO camp is just round the corner. I remember back in the cadet years of ANCO course/camp. I've learnt a lot of things, and one of them is to eat a lot. A. LOT. I bet Hidz, Dhabz and Fida can comment about that, haha.

And, even if I gain weight, it's not like I'm gonna grow out of this form. Haha. Maybe when I'm greying and forty, my metabolism dies down up to a point where I can actually have a pot belly. Ew.

Lol. But anyways. Camp soon, and I've not packed my bag. But it's okay - Certified Evil, you see. ;)

Hmm. I'm wondering if I should head to a friend's place, over in Malaysia. He's Singaporean, but has a house in Malaysia. Quite cool, shall do a bit of "country watch" instead of the usual Neighbourhood Watch you locals only get to do. Lol.

Maybe I should have a house elsewhere too. Maybe, when it's too hot in Singapore, I can fly there, and life there for a month or two, and when the rainy seasons come back, I fly back to Singapore. Nothing beats the food like Singapore's. Lol.

Well. I can either stay up a little. Or head to bed. Because I'm really just tired. Goody it's the term end quite soon. I'm just really wishing to get the chance to talk to that someone again. And I pray hard, that all's smooth for that person, and that one day we'd be able to chat with each other easier than what it's like right now.

It's okay.

Sometimes, I feel like breaking, but some things just keeps me on the line of track.

Anyways. Off to bed I guess. Later guys.

PS: I really like apples. Just because they're good to bite, not that they taste good to me. Lol.

Love you, H.

Sayonara~

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 00:25

Friday, December 01, 2006

*vamp face*

*vamp face*

Don't know why, but I'm extremely pissed off. Maybe it's the lack of proper sleep..

Love you, H.

Sayonara~

angelus_raptor left bulletshell casings at 03:22